祝君好

祝君好

听
你不断呼叫我
划破宁静我的心下堕
在难过 讲不出爱没结果
口和唇 紧紧闭锁

看
也一话都不说
害怕 连累你一生日月
憾无缺 只差跟你曾遇过
给过你 太多波折

宁愿没拥抱共你可到老
任由你来去自如在我心底仍爱慕
如若碰到 他比我好
只望停在远处祝君安
好虽不可亲口细诉

说
太多话我想说
但我还是要哑口道别
任由我 天空海阔流翔去
只要你 白似冰雪

宁愿没拥抱共你可到老
任由你来去自如在我心底仍爱慕
如若碰到 他比我好
只望停在远处祝君安好
虽不可亲口细诉

宁愿没拥抱共你能够终老
任由你来去自如在我心底仍爱慕
如若碰到 他比我好
只望停在远处祝君安好
多么想亲口细诉

Shut Up, will you

Many ppl think that asking people to shut up is a bad thing to do. well.. i wouldn't say it is a good thing either, but then, if you do not know how to put yourself in other people's shoe before saying something, you'd better shut up.

sometimes you think that what you are saying are some wise words.. sometimes you think that you are superior in some matters and therefore you shall talk.. sometimes you think that you are doing the correct way and i am not so you speak up to let me know i'm wrong.. since you will not be reading my blog.. let me tell you tis.. shut up and fuck off.. if you think you are damn smart, plz do not come and mess wit my life. if you think that you are supposed to come and 'lead' me to a better life, forget bout it. i am me and you are you. i have my own reasons of doing things, and plz do not come and question me. it's enough that i can answer to myself what am i doing... it's allrite as well as i do not have wrong doings. the end justifies the mean. if you wanna comment, comment on the result. please do not comment on my method of doing things


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way back into love

Way Back into Love


I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

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jigsaw puzzle

life is like jigsaw puzzle.. no matter wat, when, where, we are always looking for the pieces tat complete the jigsaw puzzle. you might not find what you wan, you might found the wrong ones, you might found one but you do not know where to put it simply coz the puzzle isn't tat complete yet (puzzle usually starts wit the corner isn't it? you cant put the middle piece at the start). we keep finding finding and finding... some are lucky tat they found the last piece of jigsaw puzzle and completed it.. some might not be so lucky that they are still looking for pieces that complete their life till they die... u, me, he, she, they... every1 is finding de pieces tat complete our life... hope tat you got de correct ones... hope tat u can find de final piece tat complete everything soon...

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My Favourite Song

Nowadays, i got hooked to this song so much. a chinese song, not new, but then i just got the song recently.

煎熬(enduring long hardship)
演唱:孙协志+王心凌
女:刚好 我们拥有彼此寻找的好
可惜不太凑巧 在错的时候情路上遇到
男:若不是 不忍心看你两难中煎熬
不然我绝不肯这样眼睁睁看你重回他怀抱

女:嘴角勉强撑起了笑
也要让你看到最后一丝的骄傲
男:因为你说说到做到
提的起放的下才有男人的味道
女:我不是不知道
没有你的日子会有多么煎熬
男:就算是我傻的可笑
失去当成得到只要能够对你好我都会做到

男:若不是不忍心看你两难中煎熬
不然我绝不肯这样眼睁睁看你重回他怀抱

女:嘴角勉强撑起了笑
也要让你看到最后一丝的骄傲
男:因为你说说到做到
提的起放的下才有男人的味道
女:我不是不知道
没有你的日子会有多么煎熬
男:就算是我傻的可笑
失去当成得到只要能够对你好我都会做到

女:你是否懂我的感受
男:说走却舍不得掉头
女:我不该爱的太重
男:让你我如此难过
合:为何我爱的一切没有结果

chorus repeat

the bold part, is what i feel is so meaningful...

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review on Formula One Brazilian Grand Prix

I didn't get to watch many formula one races since i arrived in Melboure, partly because the timing and also broadcasting problems. However, there was this final grand prix that i watched, which is certainly the best of all i have watched these years.

Things worked well for the Ferraris and KIMI RAIKKONEN eventually past his teammate and pole sitter Felipe Massa, to clinch both the Brazilian Grand Prix, and World Championship title for the first time. He definitely had done a great job, but not only him alone that had earned my respect. Felipe Massa, who had a great run during the day, certainly had the ability to win the Grand Prix in his home country, but he put his team above his own desire, and make way for his teammate to win. A great man, great teammate, and great job by him.

On the other hand, there was this little incident that caught my attention. The Williams new Japanese driver (forgotten his name), was unable to stop in time in the pit lane and accidently hit the crews who were there for his pit stop. There was a crew who got hit directly and injured, but his had recovered quickly to get his job done in changing the tyres, before limping back into the garage with the help from the others. He was later shown stretchered to the hospital. He had really done what he should do, get his own job done, before thinking about his own injury. thumbs up for him..

Besides that, i feel that there is nothing to choose between the Mclaren team and the Ferrari team. But after one whole season, what seperate both of them are the way the boss managed the team. It was known to the whole world that the relationship between the 2 Mclaren drivers wasn't good, and moreover, things got from bad to worse when the Mclaren team tried to push Lewis Hamilton to the summit of the world championship. The team must had forgotten that Alonso had his own egoism, and creating a conflict between the drivers was the last thing to do in Formula One. Unlike Mclaren, the Ferraris raced in a team, and it was teamwork that make Kimi the world champion. The reason why a team needs 2 drivers is that both of them can support each other in the race when they needed each other. If it wasn't Massa in between Raikkonen and Alonso, Alonso would have been crowned the world champion again. Or, if Hamilton took Massa off the race, Raikkonen will not have the chance to lift the world champion trophy despite winning the grand prix.

anyway, the race is over. Mclaren, my favourite team, had made a terrible mistake this season. i really hope that next season will be better.

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I want it my way

I ain't a great thinker. I m not going to sit down and start thinking whether what am i doing now is what i want to do.. do i suit what m i studying now.. or things along those lines... however, there are some stuff in life that i think that i reli wan it to be done my way. have you ever be in a situation where you think that you are correct, but you just have to agree with the others coz you are minority? Have you ever regret on what u have done but u r forced to do it, either by social norm or by some other influential parties? have you ever think that what if you have done sth sth and not sth else?

well.. I am in some sense, ego. Sometimes, the more you tell me that you should do it this way, the more reluctant i am to follow your way. y must it always be your way? is it always true that what most people do is the best way u can find? you might think that your way is the best, but it might not be true for me. if you tell me that this way works well for normal ppl, then i shall say i aint normal, i am special. sometimes those who success are those who are ego and daring.. i m not saying that i m one of them, but if it is a necessity to succeed, i will learn from them.

your way, i will leave it as my last resort. I don't mind trying all other possible ways before finding out that your way suits me the best. I don't mind that you will tease me and tell me "see i told you so", coz i will have no regrets having tried all other paths. and definitely, if i find a better route, i will laugh at you and say, " you just aren't daring enough."

there is nothing for you to lose in this world if you dare to try something new. But there are certainly more things that you can imagine that you can gain if you dare to step into your own forbidden zone.


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天使。恶魔。

最近好多东西在脑里翻来滚去。。好不明白到底在发生什么事。。近来对生活特别不耐烦。。连梦也是黑色的。。话也不想多说了。。

忽然间想到天使与恶魔。。每个人心里都有天使与恶魔。。天使，每个人都想成为吧？每个人都希望自己是天使，不要成为恶魔。。难道成为一个善良的人，成为每个人眼里的天使，就是最好的吗？难道恶魔就是坏的，恶魔就是我们该远离的吗？

这世界到底发生了什么问题？为什么善良的人，总是时常被人欺负呢？为什么这世界总是欺善怕恶呢？好不明白。。。大声就可以赢，力大就可以做主，那不出声就代表赞同，小声的人就不必理会，对吗？如果不想得罪任何人，就得放弃自己的权利与想法，盲目的去跟随那些声音比你大，权利比你大的人吗？有时真的觉得成为恶魔多好。。看不顺眼的人，就把他们给解决掉。。我想，宁可我负天下人，也不要天下人负我。。那多么好。。如果自私能保护自己，我宁可一辈子都自私。。如果暴力能解决问题，我会毫不犹豫地把问题给解决掉。。如果把心打开会被人割伤，我会把我的心深深地埋着。。

我渐渐地体会到，我应该多保护自己，好想跟着感觉走。。好想对自己好。。觉得这世界根本就没有天使。。只有戴着天使面具的恶魔。。我多么想成为一个第三者，站在远处，看着世人形形色色的面具下的样子，到底有多么的恐怖，多么的恶心。。至少这会让我在照镜子时感觉舒服。。

成人的世界。。真的是好恐怖。。好多残缺。。先下手为强，恶人先告状。。都是生存的哲理吗？

我的部落格。。。还没有死。。

Understand not...

it is almost 3am in the morning.. studying but couldn't get my mind clear... so many things so confusing.. so many things i don understand.. me, my life, my studies, my thoughts, people around me, people near me, people far away from me, everything seems to be beyond reach. rain had stopped, but it didn't make me stop being down. Weird.. Of reasons that i duno, i feel down.. understand? not

long long way to learn... i wish i could just stop learning and be a 3rd party watching you all learning. But i know i cant. Hence i will smile at myself and say let's learn. weird. confusing. understand? not

learn.. i should.. you should.. everyone should..


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10 countries i want to go the most at the moment..

currently in law library.. not in a mood to study.. duno why.. stil prefer ballieu library more.. lucky had my laptop with me, and decided to blog for a while...

10 countries i would like to go the most at this moment.. from least to most...

1. Taiwan - soo many taiwanese singer that i like there.. would like to go there for their signaturesssss....
2. Japan - ahem.. don simply think.. i love de sakura there kay.. =.=
3. Hong Kong - well watch so much hong kong series, how can not be there myself?
4. Brazil - i like samba!!!
5. Spain - Spain lots of handsome guys yea? proof? look at Spain soccer national team wakakka
6. France - will only go with my future wife (if any).. considering honey moon there?
7. Nepal - used to be top of my list... heard that it is really really nice there.. haha Nepal so sorry.. you have been demoted..
8. Denmark - fairy tale country...
9. Germany - I just couln't resist wanting to go germany although i know nothing about it..

finally.. the top of the list... the MOST i wanna go... make a guess..

mmm...

can you read my mind?

hmmmm...

do you know where i wan to go the most??

where??

mana??

na li??

hahha there you go!!

10. MALAYSIA larrr!! - I miss my home!! duh!!


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Bloody Blood..

after so many days, the cut on my finger is still bleeding.. de wound didn't close completely while i changed the plaster 3 days after the cut.. stil bleeding after that.. one week after the accident, change plaster again.. and.. it bleeds again.. =.= wonder when oni it can recover...

de stupid pimper on my nose. stil bleeding after a month i squeeze all de duno-call-wat out.. everytime after shower when i wipe my face, surely i will wipe too hard and make it bleed. But tat is not de annoying thing.. wat is annoying is that tis morning when i m still sleeping, i feel that sth wet on my nose.. at first thought i am having running nose, but then tink tink tink, couldn't be la.. i dont have running nose la.. so i wipe de liquid, tried very hard to open my eyes and see.. =.= wat else? blood again.. sigh.. went to toilet to clean it up.. half of my nose and cheek is bloody.. lol... not tat bad to start a day with bloody face yea?

i rather go donate blood than wasting my blood like tat.. endless wounds.. when can you heal?

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Love. Bless. Curse.

No idea why i wanna post this, but seems like alot of my frenz around me have been running into relationship problem.. Some not to say relationship prob cause some of them haven even been in relationship yet.. uhmmm.. mayb love problem will be a more suitable one..

Many people thought that it is so good to be in a relationship.. Yea i agree on that to a certain extent. It all starts with a crush, where you suddenly realise that you cant take your eyes off this person, you are just attracted to him/her. You tried to get close to that person, tried your best to adjust your own hobbies with him/her, tried to make her laugh by using some lame jokes or whatsoever, tried your every best to make things happen. That is just a crush, but the feelings that is poking your heart is one of the strong ones. you just cant help thinking of them, thinking of what they are doing, thinking of who are them thinking of, and so on and so on..

If things go on well and you are attached, the starting months might be the sweetest time you ever had in your life. this period, known as 甜蜜期 in chinese, is when you experience things in your life.. example? your first time holding someone's hand, first kiss, first hug.. blah blah blah.. but that is not the point. what really makes a relationship a relationship is what follows.. the so called 'cool down period'? hahah.. don't actually know the name, but basically what happens is that there is no longer sparkle between you and your partner.. everything seems to have cooled down, and you start feeling that all the outings, meeting up with partner, dinners are more of a formality and responsibilites than of meeting some1 you would like to spend time with.. you start to feel that there is no need to see your partner so often, you want your own life, you start question your partner for interupting your plans, for doing sth you think is unessarily, and quarrels getting more from day to day.. You sit back and you start thinking that do you love him/her anymore, and......

well.. if this is what you think of how a relation should be, you are definitely wrong.. what more about it are your sacrifices, your care, and most importantly, your time. spending more time with gf/bf requires you to sacrifice more things, such as money, friendship, and possibly, studies. besides that, you might need a partner to support you emotionally and mentally, but what he/she is not able to do so? or mayb you are the one who still needs to go and support them when you need support the most? what if they get emo easily? will you get tired of them? will you scold him/her? will you make him or her cry?

guess i make the point clear here. Being in a relationship is not as easy as what we think. It is just not merely like those couple on the street who looked so lovely and sweet. What is behind the scene, no one will know. From a third party, love might look like a bless. But is it a bless or a curse, only you can tell. From my pov, it is not only whether the mr/mrs right has appeared or not, it is also whether you are ready for all these obstacles or not.

looks like i do not have both... what do you have?


p/s 1: this post is merely my opinion, any similarities will be purely coincidence.
p/s 2: I am not directing this post to any1.. it just apply in general. I apologize if any1 feel offended
p/s 3: yes i know what are you thinking... lame jokes work the best.. althought they are lame..
p/s 4: plz feel free to comment if i m wrong / left out sth important :)


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mummy says

Have your mummy ever tell you..

1. Do not play with knife.. it's dangerous...
2. Be careful with tin can cover after you have opened it... it might cut you..
3. Do not leave your finger nail so long.. you might scratch yourself..

my answers are..
1. knife only larr.. nevermind la.. act macho a bit...
2. tin can cover oni ma.. won hurt..
3. aiyo.. finger nail.. lazy to cut larr.. will break off itself when it is too long...

yea.. and that is how i earned my 3 cuts in the week.. crap.. running low of plasters.. sigh


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Life Is Like Poker

seems like every1 around me has addicted to poker in facebook.. well here is something worth thinking..

not everyone is born the same.. some may born with golden spoon (pocket aces??), some might have a not so good life (ie 2/7 offsuit). well.. you are born like tat and you cant complain. so you will jus have to live wit it.

As you live longer, there are more element added into your life, such as love, carreers, families, blah blah blah.. those are represented by the cards on the table. Now all you need to do is to find the best out of all these element, and make your life a meaningful one. You try very hard to make people believe that you are actually living a good life, but how good exactly is your life, only you will know.

Life is also like poker because there isnt always second chance. you might not have large amount of money as the others, so you will have to go all in in 1 round and that's it. In fact, most people only have 1 round in their entire life, and not many lucky soul have a second chance. once you go all in, it is as good as putting the gun next to your head, waiting for people to pull the trigger. How many people can play a round of poker and walk out of it with big money? how many people can stand up again after a big failure? and how many people can win all the time?

well.. good luck in playing poker.. i m currently losing all my chips away.. =p

texas holdem poker.. geez..

i wanna point the gun at his head and trigger it..

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BECK!!

*ahem* yoyo

I am back again after missing in action for quite some time... totally deleted my old blog. feel that that is a total waste of time and effort.. hopefully that this will be a more successful blog i had.. it will no longer be some happening stuff with funky photos around.. not easy and not always have such photos to post.. guess i will blog more on my thoughts? i know it will be a little bit boring.. well.. read if you want.. i m not forcing you to read it.. right now i am thinking should i make it a public or private blog.. will decide after i finish this post..

I think my first post should explain why is ' LIVE AS IF THERE IS NO TOMORROW ' as my blog title. Many might think that if there is no tomorrow, then how you should live is to play kao kao.. play all you want since tomorrow doesnt exist, there will be no more responsibility. well that is certainly not i want to do. I obviously don't mean that there is strictly no tomorrow. but the key point is, how many tomorrow do you have? can you guarantee me a certain numbers of tomorrows that you will have? it is impossible to know how many tomorrows you have.. What i think is that, if there is no tomorrow, at least during the last minute of the day, i can hold my head up and tell every1 i have done much more things than them, i have no regrets on whatsoever.. but you will never know when is that day..

What have i done then? mmm.. not much.. i am trying to do as much stuff i can..

Things I am still searching and yet to be done:

1. to go clubbing and get drunk :p
2. at least get a H1 in my exams (sigh.. impossible larr)
3. to get a gf (mission impossible x 10000000!! =.=)
4. to know more angmo friends - how larr??!!
5. not to sleep so much
6. travel around the world
7. to learn how to play any music instrument
8. to be good in any sports
9. wanna get rid of my heavy glasses
10. wanna be more mature
11. wanna lose weight!!
12. finally, stay happeee all the time!!!

well.. more will come as i live longer.. give yourself 24 hours.. if you see the sun again the next 24 hours, smile to yourself and say 'yea i earn another day :)'.. whenever you sleep.. you will never know whether you will wake up again or not.. finally i would like to say carpe diem.. sieze the day =p cheers