tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-22361564443149132572024-03-05T20:52:16.394-08:00LiV3 aS if TheR3 is N0 TomoRRoW..future is not always in your hand.. do all you want while you still can..-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.comBlogger32125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-87469496551761688162008-02-18T06:40:00.000-08:002008-02-18T07:56:04.380-08:00hello again, melbournetime flies, used to be my previous blog title. it is true that time flies. 3 months of holiday is going to be over, and i couldnt ask for more. i am going back to melbourne on the 25th night, together with fatts and nicole ( the stupid one ). haha just jk.. anyway unlike fatts, i m stil not in a mood to go back. feeling reluctant to pack, feeling reluctant to go back, for the first time.<br /><br />almost 3 months spent in kl, basically i did not do much. jobs not found, travels not done, friends not met, i am such a lousy person in these 3 months. i do not know why, i really blame on the immobility without being able to drive around. yes i hate to go back home by bus during peak hours under such hot weather. forget about it it aint going to happen in melbourne.<br /><br />without my realisation, i have engaged in so many more extra commitment that make me feel even more unwilling to go back. unlike last year, i have no plans ahead (although alot of my plans last yr just vanished like tat). need alot more time to get myself adjusted for uni life again. ppl say uni life is very easy. it is the time where u mould your own characteristic, the time where you meet the friends of your life, the time you pursue your interest, the time you try out new things, the time you learn about the world. i cant feel it at all in melbourne, sadly but seriously. we (typical asian) are still very much protected and academic orientated. what is missing is that something other than book that we can hang up to. feel so disgusted. books will not be my only priority in the coming years. i promise.<br /><br />hello again, melbourne..<br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-34121279628981722012008-02-15T07:26:00.001-08:002008-02-15T07:34:07.330-08:00reunionhad a dinner together with a few secondary schol mate just now. just 6 of us - mun keat, aaraon, william, bryan, benny, and me. although there are just a few of us, but it is always very comfortable to hang around with them. vi - rc - reunion - dinner - enjoy. miss it<br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-21867252021700026152008-02-04T20:29:00.000-08:002008-02-04T20:47:52.518-08:00politics 2i would like to add on a little bit on my post about my views of politics before this. at the end of the previous post, i mentioned about 2 parties policy. oh yea after some consideration, it is never gonna be an effective one as long as malaysians are still in the 3rd world mindset.<br /><br />the most essential part for a 2 parties policy to function well is when all the members support for the best suggestions, regardless the idea is given by those from your own party, or from your opposition. In short, when you are in the cabinet, then put those parties issue aside, and do the best for the country. This does not only stimulate the country's growth, but also ensure that government projects does not terminate when a party succeed from another. Besides that, party leaders are also expected to be very open hearted when receiving critics or unsupportive behaviour from members of the own party, if what they pointed out is true and reasonable. A positive competitions with reasonable amounts of critics from the bottom of your party will ensure leaders not to 'sleep away' during their terms.<br /><br />However, in my beloved home country, for this to happen seemed to be a bit difficult. A BN member will be exiled from the party if he make some comments about his own party. Elected BN members will need to support the policies by their leaders no matter what, and will be very united trying to reject any of the oppositions suggestions, no matter they are good or bad for the country. 3rd world mindset is stil deep inside each and every Malaysian. what should they do, and what they shouldn't, they still do not know. Immature behaviours of any leaders of any country, will only bring suffering to the residents.<br /><br />politics is still far from dawn...<br /><br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-70425055751328652972008-02-03T09:01:00.001-08:002008-02-03T09:35:09.119-08:00politicsrecently, malaysia has been heated up with pre election issues. politicians are seen to be running around the country having talks, government came out with more plans for the country than any other time, oppositions voicing out alot of complains, all because of the coming election possibly in March.<br /><br />I am in no man's shoe to comment who should be supported and who shouldn't be. however, what is concerning me is that there are actually alot of malaysian youngsters who have been so bored with BN ruling the country for 50 years and have started to support the opposition. I am not against anyone who support the oppositions, but somehow i got so disgusted when i saw there is a group in Facebook that says ' deny BN a 2/3 majority in the election', or any similar issues around. there is even someone on my MSN list whose display name says something like that ' Malaysian can't vote for themselves, such as Malaysian idol, BN, blah blah blah'. I got very disgusted and ashamed when i saw things like this.<br /><br />I can't say that BN is doing a great job in ruling the country. but they are definitely nowhere near the worst either ( come on just look at Taiwan, look at US ). look around the country, which opposition party has the ability to manage the whole country well? on their own, they are just a small party. PAS with a base in Kelantan can't even settle Islamic issue themselves. DAP which is mainly chinese and is just like terrorist, they hide in everywhere and start their gueriella attack here and there and everywhere, hoping to create chaos in the country and get some votes from those who knows nothing. Keadilan, will it be existed if Anwar is not exiled from the BN?<br /><br />I am not only talking bad about the oppositions here. but look, how can a party with just mainly one race can win the election? this is Malaysia man, you need to get the support from everyone, every races to win the election. After 50 years of independence, why do the oppositions can't get the idea right? if they do, why are them still on their own by now? yea in one of the recent elections, the opposition did get together and formed an Alliance which consisted of opposition parties from all 3 major ethnics. successful? no. look at it now, DAP no longer want to be in the Aliance anymore. why? simply because they are still on their own even they are under the same name. no mutual understanding, not well established, no good plans, no unity.<br /><br />stop being such an idiot to roar around trying to bring BN down. if it is being brought down, Malaysia will be in a condition worse than now. Taiwan is already a good example. If PAS wins, they wil stop males from going into the cinema with females. if DAP wins, there will be a Chinese PM, omg i cant see that coming. If Keadilan wins, they will start taking their revenge towards our former PM and leave the whole country behind. stop repeating the same mistake. even though BN is not up to our standard, but i will still vote for it (if i can vote) simply because i will vote for the best. unless the opposition starts to understand thoroughly why do they lose, and come up with a two party policy in malaysia ( like in the US), if not, they will never see the day they win in an election. wake up, idiots.<br /><br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-59489072242748220092008-02-03T08:41:00.000-08:002008-02-03T08:43:29.339-08:00when malay meets english language 2just a little bit to add on to the post that day. saw a new damn funny translation on tv2 series.<br /><br />office - ofis<br /><br />lol. say thanks to malaysia for integration.<br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-5481449490536251512008-01-28T08:56:00.000-08:002008-01-28T09:28:30.255-08:00Reason I like being in Melbournethere are things i like and dislike about being in Melbourne. But there is one particular reason i like being in Melbourne. The reason is, when in Melbourne, everyone is equal and closer to each other. What do i mean by this?<br /><br />1. everyone in melbourne usually stays near to each other. unlike in KL, where we can be world apart<br /><br />2. we can go out anytime we want, unlike in home that parents usually keep an eye on us, having time curfew, and possibly financial restraints ( maybe some of you don't but i believe most of us do)<br /><br />3. we have no transportation advantage over each other. the reason i hate being in KL is that i cant drive around anytime i like. This makes me to have to depend on the rest to fetch me, or have to take public transport, which means there is a limit on the time and distance i m going.. this makes me getting so lazy to go out in KL. it is almost impossible to go out to yumcha at night without a car, which happen to me almost all the time. Everywhere is just like out of reach if you do not have a car. Unlike in Melbourne, it is allright to go out together since we are all taking public transport, or even walk back when it is almost dawn. places we go are usually within walkable distance, and the convenience you feel is definitely different from being at home in KL.<br /><br />4. we can have gathering/mini parties/reunions in anyone's houses without any concerns. besides, we can even bump into any fren's house to stay overnight if it is too late to go back. well how often can you do that in KL?<br /><br />i will definitely enjoy my life in Melbourne.<br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-15217687906093916742008-01-25T07:01:00.000-08:002008-01-25T07:37:10.109-08:00people i would not go to karaoke box withthose who know me well will know that i love singing, and love going karaoke. It is such a shame to tell that i have not really gone to sing k since i am back from melbourne. you can scold me why i am willing to spend 30 aussie dollar to sing in melbourne but cant even spend 7 ringgit to sing in malaysia, with a much better room, sound system, more mics, and more food. Well I want to make it clear here that i did gone for karaoke 3 times in malaysia, but i did not enjoyed even once.<br /><br />the first time, i went to celebrate a fren's bd. i reached there late, about half an hour left and of course din get to sing coz i didnt pay. not purposely late, i told her i will be late and i was not supposed to be there anyway. never mind that.<br /><br />2nd time, went to sing k with cousins, uncles and aunties, dad and mum. the first of at least 19 years of history in my family. well, how would you enjoy, if those who are singing with you ranged from 50++ year old, to 5 year old.<br /><br />3rd time, went with my sister's friends. well you might be asking where are my friends? oh well, i would love to know where are them too. my sister's friends, ranging from around my age to about 25++, i thought it would be a good day, and turned out i was wrong, totally. despite some of them are my age, but the songs they sang are totally not. here are some statistic:<br /><br />jay chou - 0 songs<br />jj lin - 0 songs<br />wilber pan - 0 songs<br />SHE - 0 songs<br />guang liang - 0 songs<br />jolin tsai - 1 song<br />eason chen - 0 songs<br />fish leong - 1 song<br />gary - 1 song<br />mayday - 0 song<br /><br />so what song did they sing?<br /><br />-early songs by Ah Mei ( before year 2000)<br />-old songs by britney spears, westlife, backstreet boy<br />-songs that oni my mum will sing if it is being played on TV, ie: Roman, Teresa<br />-early songs by Jacky Cheung<br />-songs that i don even know what are them<br /><br />yes, i stayed there for 4 hours, and the songs i know how to sing, guess about half an hour. the most painful time spent in a karaoke box. I WILL BE PUNCHING MYSELF IF I HAVE TO PAY FOR IT. lucky my sister treat me.<br /><br />lesson learnt, unless you go sing k with those who are close to you who listen to the same area of songs, if not, you aint going to enjoy. i promise you tat.<br /><br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-17517216557196913342008-01-23T08:05:00.000-08:002008-01-23T09:13:14.094-08:00when malay meets english languageI remember when I was still in secondary schol and we used to have alot of tuition classes. I recalled that in one of the tuition classes, Sir asked us to discuss about the obstacles in using malay language as international language, and one of the reasons given by KimChew and his group was Malay language had absorbed too many foreign language into its vocabulary, and it is still going on, causing the language to be inconsistent and confusing... blah blah blah... ( cant remember so much) some example : strategy - strategi, computer - komputer.....<br /><div></div><br /><div>after spending a year in Australia, i came back to malaysia and i read news about the Dewan Pustaka had absorbed too much foreign language into its dictionary and caused the malay to be BAHASA ROJAK, aka rojak language.. well, for the past 2 months, i have been watching too much tv series with malay subtitles and i realised that the direct translations are getting worse and worse. there are even malay reporters who don't know how to speak correct malay. for example:</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>1. company - kompani (gg...)</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>2. character - karakter ( omg...)</div><br /><div></div><br /><div>3. reporter:' ... biarlah sekarang kita makan sidikit <strong>goreng pisang</strong>, dan kita akan kembali dengan lebih banyak aksi badminton..' ( i am watching Malaysia Open, and all that pop up my mind is - WTF??!!!)</div><br /><div></div>but of course, if you follow TV1 news, you will find out that there is a chinese reporter who can speak malay language as good as the malays. you will definitely be unable to tell his race by just listening to him reporting. weird. chinese are getting interested in malay. there is a proof here:<br /><br /><br /><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5158720224381434306" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgR2vwSDvOvVuqbBGd-tEbxYYYPW-GGYP_sokFuf2DcybQIk9AJR0ln1QtImkXbccspIshOVz4Mevr9KPXqaor6Le_56rxSddHSVIFd0yVAfBii8j0q_eQyoo7TLZr7foNWGdgsUztYFdg/s400/SP_A0037.jpg" border="0" />gotten this from Sinchew Jit Poh, stating the box office sales in malaysia for the week. note that the 5th movie, In the<strong> NAMA</strong> of King.. wow.. i think i shall go watch..<br /><br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...<br /><div></div>-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-16457407073061198802007-11-25T14:44:00.000-08:002007-11-25T14:47:17.265-08:00JA NEjust a random post, saying ja ne to melbourne, and of coz frenz from melbourne. wouldn't say i love the city, but there is nothing i hate about it. will see you all in 3 months time. plz do not miss me<br /><br />p/s: if i m free in KL, i will try to post all i have done in Melbourne<br />p/s2: if i m even more free, i will post my close frenz in melbourne, with photos, of coz<br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-87004403591703769202007-11-25T14:23:00.001-08:002007-11-25T14:43:32.356-08:00rule of life #3here i am, presenting you my rule of life #3. especially to kimchew, i m trying to find a rule tat you say is better than the first one,<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">rule of life #3</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff9900;"><em>LETTING GO FOR BETTERMENT IS AN ACT OF SAINT</em></span><br /><span style="color:#ff9900;"></span><br />have you ever being selfish to hang on to something that you loved so much even if you know sacrificing would be a better way? have u ever cried over it? have you ever thought of a reason why you will cry? is it because you find it too late to appreciate? have you ever felt that y are you stupid?<br /><br />people are selfish, yes i do agree with that. who is willing to give up what they possess, and what they love? but there are people out there who wil do that, i will pray hard you are one of them.<br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-32932488900393186102007-11-25T13:44:00.000-08:002007-11-25T14:22:53.610-08:00Lostafter about 10 months of experience as an overseas student in a whole new city of Melbourne, i find myself less than 12 hours to go to the airport, and will be landing in KLIA in about 24 hours time. By right, adreline should b pumping my whole body now, and i m supposed to be damn excited for being able to go back, being able to see my parents, being able to share all my happiness and sadness throughout de year with my beloved friends, and de most important, being able to eat cheap and nice food!!!<br /><br />However, i m not feeling tat at all. I m kinda lost now. Lost between the cities of Melbourne and Kuala Lumpur? i guess so.. i couldn't explain my feelings now, but the feel of joyness a month ago seems to have been missing. I miss my frenz in KL, but i miss those whom i met here too. i am so used to Melbourne already that i m afraid to face new things in KL. i really do not know wat's going on in KL anymore, no longer know my frenz well.. no longer know how's de trend going. i really hate de feeling of I DUNO.. hate the feeling of meeting up and leaving each other.. an ever changing world, shoulder that is full of pressure, i hate them much but guess i hv to love them much too.. tat's life isn't it?<br /><br />here i am, holding my heads up back to KL, and all eyes of my family and relatives were on me as an overseas student, from the prestigous Uni of Melbourne. But the feeling of fighting on yourself in a new world, the feeling of fatigue, who understands?<br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet..-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-48938505248474664482007-11-19T21:06:00.000-08:002007-11-19T21:38:51.924-08:00responsibilityeveryone says tat ppl grow up through taking up responsibility. wat is on your shoulder makes u grow. there are always burden on your shoulder no matter how old are you. however, have you been taking up responsibilities tat you are not interested in lately? or, have you been taking up responsibilities tat you thought you are interested in, but then you found out you are not?<br /><br />if responsibility is the one and only way to grow, i rather not grow. the last straw has broken the camel's back.<br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-41547398004830106732007-11-15T21:40:00.000-08:002007-11-15T21:45:53.030-08:00rule of life #2yes i know it is up on my msn nick for quite some time, haven had the time to post it though. since i find myself a few hours free to dinner, so i decided to post it now.<br /><br /><span style="font-size:130%;">rule of life #2</span><br /><br /><span style="color:#ff9900;"><em>YOU DO NOT NEED TO LOOK BAD TO BE BAD, AND YOU DO NOT NEED TO LOOK GOOD TO BE GOOD.</em><br /></span><br />everyone is wearing a mask in the life. it is wat you do that defines you (from Batman begins). not your appeareance. think hard. good luck.<br /><br />p/s: mayb this will be de reason for my mum to let me dye hair and peirce ear :D<br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-60229026556303951232007-11-15T21:26:00.000-08:002007-11-15T21:35:01.809-08:00randommm.. nth much.. getting even lazier after exam to blog. yes. mayb it is due to the reduced time i spend in front of the laptop. anyway, here is some random thought that poped out in my mind when i was drunk.. some addition to the previous post....<br /><br />I used to tell ppl, believe tat the world is fair. but is it really fair? yea you might hv things that others don hv, and others hv things that u dont. yup. seems like the creator of our life are playing a game wit us. wat we want to hv, we will never have it, and HE will give us sth we never thought of having it, as compensation. weird. how do we get out of this game? how do we always win the game? too much things that cant be explained. but at least, the most important is that wat ever v had, tat's all v have. do not be greedy before you are contented with it.<br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-49331160183618050932007-11-11T04:02:00.000-08:002007-11-11T04:07:57.760-08:00rule of life #1well it came up to my mind randomly. so just write it out in the blog to share wit every1. i do not know if there is #2, #3 and so coming, i will try to post it if de idea strikes.<br /><br /><strong><span style="font-size:130%;">rule of life #1</span></strong><br /><br /><em><span style="color:#ff9900;">FALL IN LOVE WITH WHAT YOU HAVE, NOT FALL IN LOVE WITH WHAT YOU DON'T HAVE</span></em><br /><br />sounds easy? think twice. haha. might not be as easy as you first thought.<br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-35549813050196256272007-11-10T04:34:00.000-08:002007-11-10T05:06:55.428-08:00One Litre of tearsyes i know tis series was out in 2005, and it is now 2007. call me slow if you want. up to you. but it is the best series i have ever watched. you all might think that so wat? jap and korean drama always sad sad make u cry.. oh yes they do. but the reason i watched this is because it is a real life story. I won say all, but most of the things in the series are true. really worth watching it.<br /><br />there are 3 songs in the series that really touched me.. 1st one, konayuki which means powder snow by duno who.. don care who ever sang that.. it is really a nice song.. i browse through youtube for one whole day, and finally decided to upload this coz i tink it is de best among the rest..<br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><iframe allowfullscreen='allowfullscreen' webkitallowfullscreen='webkitallowfullscreen' mozallowfullscreen='mozallowfullscreen' width='320' height='266' src='https://www.blogger.com/video.g?token=AD6v5dyp3ncvbPCZS05zg5yRze3rpaVLvo1pElsCLRkbl4PhvAOqbBHBbrtMVQ76OqJBy53FO59mlVdbNrjUszZb9A' class='b-hbp-video b-uploaded' frameborder='0'></iframe><br /><br /><br /><p></p><br /><p></p><p>due to my limited skills, guess tis is de best i could do. sorry for de small screen. do not know how to make it bigger. hope u all enjoy it.. haha</p><p>my blog... isn't dead yet...<br /></p><p></p><p></p>-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-8312706010588641822007-11-02T11:22:00.001-07:002007-11-02T11:30:22.483-07:00Picture of my zodiacwell as you all can see, i have added a picture of my zodiac above the cbox. there are a few reasons i love the picture so much.<br /><br />1. I don't mind being the huge big strong adorable lion<br />2. I don't mind protecting the correct person (in this case the correct lady) of my life<br />3. I love snow<br />4. I love protecting the correct person of my life in a snowy nite<br />5. If I am a lion and there is still someone who doesn't mind who am i and love me as much as i love her, that wil be perfectly perfect. (jus like beauty and the beast?) haha<br /><br />crapping coz i m high of a mixture of caffein and maths<br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-56028130827966193542007-10-31T20:38:00.000-07:002007-11-01T02:14:34.777-07:00祝君好祝君好<br /><br />听<br />你不断呼叫我<br />划破宁静我的心下堕<br />在难过 讲不出爱没结果<br />口和唇 紧紧闭锁<br /><br />看<br />也一话都不说<br />害怕 连累你一生日月<br />憾无缺 只差跟你曾遇过<br />给过你 太多波折<br /><br /><strong><span style="color:#3333ff;">宁愿没拥抱共你可到老</span><br /><span style="color:#3333ff;">任由你来去自如在我心底仍爱慕</span></strong><br />如若碰到 他比我好<br />只望停在远处祝君安<br />好虽不可亲口细诉<br /><br />说<br />太多话我想说<br />但我还是要哑口道别<br />任由我 天空海阔流翔去<br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"><strong>只要你 白似冰雪</strong></span><br /><br />宁愿没拥抱共你可到老<br />任由你来去自如在我心底仍爱慕<br />如若碰到 他比我好<br />只望停在远处祝君安好<br />虽不可亲口细诉<br /><br />宁愿没拥抱共你能够终老<br />任由你来去自如在我心底仍爱慕<br />如若碰到 他比我好<br />只望停在远处祝君安好<br /><span style="color:#3333ff;"><strong>多么想亲口细诉</strong></span>-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-51238119565382234172007-10-30T06:41:00.000-07:002007-10-30T07:13:00.230-07:00Shut Up, will youMany ppl think that asking people to shut up is a bad thing to do. well.. i wouldn't say it is a good thing either, but then, if you do not know how to put yourself in other people's shoe before saying something, you'd better shut up.<br /><br />sometimes you think that what you are saying are some wise words.. sometimes you think that you are superior in some matters and therefore you shall talk.. sometimes you think that you are doing the correct way and i am not so you speak up to let me know i'm wrong.. since you will not be reading my blog.. let me tell you tis.. shut up and fuck off.. if you think you are damn smart, plz do not come and mess wit my life. if you think that you are supposed to come and 'lead' me to a better life, forget bout it. i am me and you are you. i have my own reasons of doing things, and plz do not come and question me. it's enough that i can answer to myself what am i doing... it's allrite as well as i do not have wrong doings. the end justifies the mean. if you wanna comment, comment on the result. please do not comment on my method of doing things<br /><br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-78928444044219494722007-10-28T05:50:00.000-07:002007-10-28T08:22:48.185-07:00way back into love<p>Way Back into Love<br /><br /><br />I've been living with a shadow overhead<br />I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed<br />I've been lonely for so long<br />Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on<br /></p><p>I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away<br />Just in case I ever need them again someday<br />I've been setting aside time<br />To clear a little space in the corners of my mind<br /></p><p>All I wanna do is find a way back into love<br />I can't make it through without a way back into love<br />Oh oh oh</p><p><br />I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine<br />I've been searching but I just don't see the signs<br />I know that it's out there<br />There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere<br />I've been looking for someone to shed some light<br />Not somebody just to get me through the night<br />I could use some direction<br />And I'm open to your suggestions</p><p><br />All I wanna do is find a way back into love<br />I can't make it through without a way back into love<br />And if I open my heart again<br />I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end<br /></p><p>There are moments when I don't know if it's real<br />Or if anybody feels the way I feel<br /><span style="color:#ffff33;">I need inspiration<br />Not just another negotiation</span><br /></p><p>All I wanna do is find a way back into love<br />I can't make it through without a way back into love<br />And if I open my heart to you<br />I'm hoping you'll show me what to do<br />And if you help me to start again<br />You know that I'll be there for you in the end<br /></p><p>my blog... isn't dead yet...</p>-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-41000455025871981412007-10-26T06:55:00.000-07:002007-10-26T07:41:56.858-07:00jigsaw puzzlelife is like jigsaw puzzle.. no matter wat, when, where, we are always looking for the pieces tat complete the jigsaw puzzle. you might not find what you wan, you might found the wrong ones, you might found one but you do not know where to put it simply coz the puzzle isn't tat complete yet (puzzle usually starts wit the corner isn't it? you cant put the middle piece at the start). we keep finding finding and finding... some are lucky tat they found the last piece of jigsaw puzzle and completed it.. some might not be so lucky that they are still looking for pieces that complete their life till they die... u, me, he, she, they... every1 is finding de pieces tat complete our life... hope tat you got de correct ones... hope tat u can find de final piece tat complete everything soon...<br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet..-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-40819916291631593822007-10-25T06:10:00.000-07:002007-10-25T06:38:01.572-07:00My Favourite SongNowadays, i got hooked to this song so much. a chinese song, not new, but then i just got the song recently.<br /><br />煎熬(enduring long hardship)<br />演唱:孙协志+王心凌<br />女:刚好 我们拥有彼此寻找的好<br />可惜不太凑巧 <strong><span style="color:#ff0000;">在错的时候情路上遇到</span></strong><br />男:若不是 不忍心看你两难中煎熬<br />不然我绝不肯这样<span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong>眼睁睁看你重回他怀抱</strong><br /></span><br />女:<strong><span style="color:#ff0000;">嘴角勉强撑起了笑</span></strong><br />也要让你看到最后一丝的<strong><span style="color:#ff0000;">骄傲</span></strong><br />男:因为你说说到做到<br />提的起放的下才有男人的味道<br />女:我不是不知道<br /><span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong>没有你的日子会有多么煎熬</strong><br /></span>男:就算是我傻的可笑<br /><strong><span style="color:#ff0000;">失去当成得</span></strong>到只要能够对你好我都会做到<br /><br />男:若不是不忍心看你两难中煎熬<br />不然我绝不肯这样眼睁睁看你重回他怀抱<br /><br />女:<strong><span style="color:#ff0000;">嘴角勉强撑起了笑</span></strong><br />也要让你看到最后一丝的<span style="color:#ff0000;"><strong>骄傲</strong><br /></span>男:因为你说说到做到<br />提的起放的下才有男人的味道<br />女:我不是不知道<br /><strong><span style="color:#ff0000;">没有你的日子会有多么煎熬</span></strong><br />男:就算是我傻的可笑<br /><strong><span style="color:#ff0000;">失去当成得到</span></strong>只要能够对你好我都会做到<br /><br />女:你是否懂我的感受<br />男:说走却舍不得掉头<br />女:<strong><span style="color:#ff0000;">我不该爱的太重</span></strong><br />男:让你我如此难过<br />合:<strong><span style="color:#ff0000;">为何我爱的一切没有结果</span></strong><br /><br />chorus repeat<br /><br />the bold part, is what i feel is so meaningful...<br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-83342701823847445852007-10-21T09:47:00.000-07:002007-10-23T07:50:34.049-07:00review on Formula One Brazilian Grand Prix<div align="left">I didn't get to watch many formula one races since i arrived in Melboure, partly because the timing and also broadcasting problems. However, there was this final grand prix that i watched, which is certainly the best of all i have watched these years. </div><br /><div align="left">Things worked well for the Ferraris and KIMI RAIKKONEN eventually past his teammate and pole sitter Felipe Massa, to clinch both the Brazilian Grand Prix, and World Championship title for the first time. He definitely had done a great job, but not only him alone that had earned my respect. Felipe Massa, who had a great run during the day, certainly had the ability to win the Grand Prix in his home country, but he put his team above his own desire, and make way for his teammate to win. A great man, great teammate, and great job by him. </div><div align="left"> </div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify">On the other hand, there was this little incident that caught my attention. The Williams new Japanese driver (forgotten his name), was unable to stop in time in the pit lane and accidently hit the crews who were there for his pit stop. There was a crew who got hit directly and injured, but his had recovered quickly to get his job done in changing the tyres, before limping back into the garage with the help from the others. He was later shown stretchered to the hospital. He had really done what he should do, get his own job done, before thinking about his own injury. thumbs up for him..</div><div align="justify"> </div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify">Besides that, i feel that there is nothing to choose between the Mclaren team and the Ferrari team. But after one whole season, what seperate both of them are the way the boss managed the team. It was known to the whole world that the relationship between the 2 Mclaren drivers wasn't good, and moreover, things got from bad to worse when the Mclaren team tried to push Lewis Hamilton to the summit of the world championship. The team must had forgotten that Alonso had his own egoism, and creating a conflict between the drivers was the last thing to do in Formula One. Unlike Mclaren, the Ferraris raced in a team, and it was teamwork that make Kimi the world champion. The reason why a team needs 2 drivers is that both of them can support each other in the race when they needed each other. If it wasn't Massa in between Raikkonen and Alonso, Alonso would have been crowned the world champion again. Or, if Hamilton took Massa off the race, Raikkonen will not have the chance to lift the world champion trophy despite winning the grand prix. </div><div align="justify"> </div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify">anyway, the race is over. Mclaren, my favourite team, had made a terrible mistake this season. i really hope that next season will be better. </div><div align="justify"> </div><div align="justify"> </div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify"></div><div align="justify">my blog... isn't dead yet...</div>-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-44566944776585418842007-10-21T03:58:00.000-07:002007-10-22T13:09:14.347-07:00I want it my wayI ain't a great thinker. I m not going to sit down and start thinking whether what am i doing now is what i want to do.. do i suit what m i studying now.. or things along those lines... however, there are some stuff in life that i think that i reli wan it to be done my way. have you ever be in a situation where you think that you are correct, but you just have to agree with the others coz you are minority? Have you ever regret on what u have done but u r forced to do it, either by social norm or by some other influential parties? have you ever think that what if you have done sth sth and not sth else?<br /><br />well.. I am in some sense, ego. Sometimes, the more you tell me that you should do it this way, the more reluctant i am to follow your way. y must it always be your way? is it always true that what most people do is the best way u can find? you might think that your way is the best, but it might not be true for me. if you tell me that this way works well for normal ppl, then i shall say i aint normal, i am special. sometimes those who success are those who are ego and daring.. i m not saying that i m one of them, but if it is a necessity to succeed, i will learn from them.<br /><br />your way, i will leave it as my last resort. I don't mind trying all other possible ways before finding out that your way suits me the best. I don't mind that you will tease me and tell me "see i told you so", coz i will have no regrets having tried all other paths. and definitely, if i find a better route, i will laugh at you and say, " you just aren't daring enough."<br /><br />there is nothing for you to lose in this world if you dare to try something new. But there are certainly more things that you can imagine that you can gain if you dare to step into your own forbidden zone.<br /><br /><br />my blog... isn't dead yet...-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2236156444314913257.post-23074708136495970612007-10-19T06:58:00.000-07:002007-10-19T08:16:41.674-07:00天使。恶魔。最近好多东西在脑里翻来滚去。。好不明白到底在发生什么事。。近来对生活特别不耐烦。。连梦也是黑色的。。话也不想多说了。。<br /><br />忽然间想到天使与恶魔。。每个人心里都有天使与恶魔。。天使,每个人都想成为吧?每个人都希望自己是天使,不要成为恶魔。。难道成为一个善良的人,成为每个人眼里的天使,就是最好的吗?难道恶魔就是坏的,恶魔就是我们该远离的吗?<br /><br />这世界到底发生了什么问题?为什么善良的人,总是时常被人欺负呢?为什么这世界总是欺善怕恶呢?好不明白。。。大声就可以赢,力大就可以做主,那不出声就代表赞同,小声的人就不必理会,对吗?如果不想得罪任何人,就得放弃自己的权利与想法,盲目的去跟随那些声音比你大,权利比你大的人吗?有时真的觉得成为恶魔多好。。看不顺眼的人,就把他们给解决掉。。我想,宁可我负天下人,也不要天下人负我。。那多么好。。如果自私能保护自己,我宁可一辈子都自私。。如果暴力能解决问题,我会毫不犹豫地把问题给解决掉。。如果把心打开会被人割伤,我会把我的心深深地埋着。。<br /><br />我渐渐地体会到,我应该多保护自己,好想跟着感觉走。。好想对自己好。。觉得这世界根本就没有天使。。只有戴着天使面具的恶魔。。我多么想成为一个第三者,站在远处,看着世人形形色色的面具下的样子,到底有多么的恐怖,多么的恶心。。至少这会让我在照镜子时感觉舒服。。<br /><br />成人的世界。。真的是好恐怖。。好多残缺。。先下手为强,恶人先告状。。都是生存的哲理吗?<br /><br />我的部落格。。。还没有死。。-zagroth-http://www.blogger.com/profile/10424979551473999779noreply@blogger.com2